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Crumble
02:11
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I slice up my fingers on the pages i crumble up out of my notebook. I'm unsatisfied. Although i dream, i don't get too much sleep these days. Anxiety, i am covered in shame. Please comfort me, or tell me it's the way life has got to be.
When i was a teenager, and renting out legion halls, i never thought i would be this far behind. Now it is so easy to lose sight of hope i had; making it so easy to want to give up. I guess i may. I guess i may have misunderstood.
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Earthling
01:37
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If i can't find myself before i'm 28, i guess i might as well just end the life i chose to hate. I often take it sitting down. My feet are rarely on the ground. Don't assume i'm all fucked up if i am on my stomach. Changeling. Earthling. It's real.
It's hard to move forward when you are convinced a bigot owns your soul. I'd sooner believe that the flesh that you eat is keeping you under control. I am slave, this much is true. I'm still an earthling just like you. Some day you'll wake up feeling new, and we'll be that much closer in a world that's destined to break. I can't make you stay. All these colors are destined to fade. I'm so afraid of change.
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Shame
01:45
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Quick review
I'm not too effecient with what i've signed up to do.
I hate the thought of failure man,
but failing's all i ever seem to do.
Write the wrongs. Sing the same old three chord songs.
I know you're getting tired of me but soon enough i'll be out of your hair. Better hide my face, because i've left you with nothing but shame.
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Hushpuppy
01:35
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Hey, i don't think we really know each other, but i heard what happened to you. They tied you up and beat the dog shit out of you. I hope you're feeling better. If you're cold i'll loan you my comfortable sweater and you can give it back whenever.
You could've just stopped giving a fuck about all my negligence. Maybe you did? Or maybe i spent too much time on the wrong friends. But when we were kids it was so easy to get caught up and pretend that we were grown up. But now i'm older and i'm sour.
I've wasted so much time, and it's been so long since you gave a shit at all. I'm sure you're where you need to be. Living out your dreams. Thankful to be without me.
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Darker As I Go
01:49
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Stalling out. Progressive thinkers get shunned for speaking out. So open up to nowhere bound. It's all about collective composure, a way they control us.
What? Are you just now figuring out that younare smaller than the cigarette butt your stomping out?
Low self esteem and anxiety have got to me and i can't find a reason not to go jump off the fucking Henley St. Bridge. I'll probably never start a family. Imbred with their pride and greed. If we can't work things out, i'd rather be alone.
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Not You
01:34
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Where did you go when i left you all alone? I could've put my back into it. I should've acted like full grown. But maybe i can be what i wasn't. Or maybe it's too late to see your face again.
Do you remember at the party when you threw up on the roof? I couldn't make my sober mind find any way to comfort you. Now i know what i didn't; that i'm so dumb. But who isn't? Not you.
I don't blame you for wanting some body else, and now i can't really judge you for endangering your health. Because now i know what i didn't; that i'm so dumb. But who isn't? Not you.
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Gemini Girls
01:24
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I've been waiting for so long, for something to lift me up high enough to see all the places in my dreams. Could it be a someone, or some way of thinking, that might drive me over the edge?
Although i'm a feminist call me a puligamist* because i love gemini girls. The "know how to lie" girls. I put myself out there and they left me out there alone with my health and my friends.
I won't mind all the things that they're saying to me. I'd be fine just staying at home. But i stay high on this ambition inside me. You locked me out. Some things i just can't let go.
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Sorry In Advance
01:46
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Send me on my way, cause i can hardly sleep at night and i can't keep my head on straight these days. Something's got a hold on me. Could it just be pretentious thinking driving me insane? Maybe i need someone to catch me when i fall. Or someone to hurt me, too let me know i'm small. Because i seem to forget.
Try and hear me out. Everything i touch just turns to shit and there's no doubt that i can't hold on too much longer now. I'm so sorry in advance.
Tell me what you're thinking about. All the ones you have done without...do they mean anything? Or is this all a dream? I can't tell anymore.
Try and hear me out this time. Could it just be pretentious thinking driving me insane? Probably.
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Fly Away
01:29
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Small steps get me where i need to be, but i'm still taking in the scenery. If i ever catch up, i'd have more than enough. I'd probably have more than i really deserve. These days i travel down a narrow road. The same damn road everybody knows. Full of new people. I'm just searching for my equal, but luck just won't give me a ride. So i'll fly away to see what's new, or to be with you.
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Shaneeka
00:14
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Shaneeka, i'm sorry. I have failed you. I have treated you unkind. The truth is i have no self worth, and i wish i was beautiful like you.
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Falling Apart
01:49
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I'm falling apart in every little way. I've got this feeling in my stomach and it just won't go away. And i'll try to build on something that could help me get away, but all i have's my dog, van, and a guitar. I hope we'll be ok.
I don't think it's worth my time; keeping up with all these friends of mine because i can't understand them. We are getting old and i can't stand them anymore. Can't i just have a country of my own? A place where people don't live inside iPhones. But wait a second...did i check my facebook today? (Of course)
Save your problems for who deserve them now, because i'm falling apart.
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Change
02:46
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What did i say to make you walk away from me, my friend?
What can i do to make you understand i'm at whits end?
I ain't nothing but a brokenhearted, absent minded fool.
What can i do now that i've lost you?
I'll wait for a change.
Back in the day, when were young, we acted our own age.
There was nothing to do but skate and play songs.
Now my song's nothing but a window to my grown up jaded ways.
What will i do now that ive lost you?
I'll wait for a change.
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